This song was created online in soundtrap music studio. The composition of loops was composed with vocals by Sheryl "me" alone. " The song is about my illness after becoming divorce and having the worst dating online experience with not meeting anyone. Soon I had a nervous breakdown where I was in a passionate relationship and most of my songs written at that time was consider done in psychosis." Sheryl. After treatment and able to see the world again as a whole I felt guilty for not being able to control my own emotions and my brain. After one psychologist refers me to the movie Beautiful Minds, I felt not as ashamed and embarrassed about myself. Many songs from my journal disappeared, I still have some of the memory of some of it. It is a simple fact that stress of the world and love can bring out hidden mental issues. That we all in someway crave to be accepted and loved. Many disagree that love and acceptance are not important, I disagree. I been writing song lyrics like a secret journal and wanted to be a teacher or singer in my adolescence. Although I was not able to complete and continue my college degree to become a certified teacher, I was still able to do the one thing I loved. That was to listen to other songwriters with artists and write my own songs. It was something I took for granted as a talent but not now it's one of the important gifts of my own genius
